1.30.2007
gosh my 12 weeks of immortality are comin to an end... in just a lil more than 3 weeks and i'll be back in melb slaving away for my degree..
come to think of it.. my hols this time round's been pretty slack... 'cept for the fact that i had to rush back to melb for a week... cuz i was unemployed and simply did not wanna do anything besdies hanging with my peeps and jammin on my guit...
but other than that... time really flies when ur havin fun.... c'est la vie..
..now's the time to pry into a segment of bry's private life..
now it looks like its gonna be the 5th year in which i have been crushing on the first girl that allured my heart to a sweet surrender.
...and still i HAVENT got the guts to tell her how i feel...
to tell u the truth, there have been countless times that i wished i had the guts to tell her how i feel, and pray and hope that she would be able to reciprocate
but i cant do it... i have no idea why..
maybe its because i resent the feeling of being dumped.. heck i even got dumped by a girl via MSN (like how sad is tt???).. and trust me.. the feeling of being dumped is equally horrible, maybe more than that of failing ur examinations
everytime i think of the possibility of getting into a relationship with her.. a lot of things cloud my mind.. and of such.. hampers any prospects of my desire..
one of which was the stability of long-distance relationships.. based on the fact that i wld be in aust for the next two years, and probably subsequently to further my studies.. i've been advised by my peers that long-distance relationships are really hard to maintain, and requires loads of trust and faithfulness for it to flourish. And heck, the slightest bit of doubt can turn the relationship sour and, it might just disintegrate..
another is that... the qn arises as to whether i REALLY wanna commit myself to just ONE girl for my entire life... i mean like.. why should guys get themselves restricted to just one person at an age where they are extremely prone to mix around and, colloquially, flirt...
and i quote from evelyn, singlehood seriously rocks... but smtimes it tends to get rather lonely
looking back at my relationship with her.. i realise that we are really just better off as friends... close friends at most... if not best of friends... nothing more...
probably. i shdnt just follow the ways of the world, but just pray and rely on God to determine the path that He has chosen for me to walk
i.e. study first than think of zabo later =D
anyways i apologise for the rather random ranting that i have concocted, which just wasted 5min of ur time, so to make up for it.. i needs to know:
does bry look better in long or short hair?
tell me ur opinion on the tagbox!
cheers
p.s. fyi, the first pic, which looks rather odd, was NOT taken by me...
``sincerely: bryys ; 1:12 AM