MY MEMORIES
6.07.2006
God opened my eyes yesterday
i now realise why God has placed me in law
people who have known me since gm days know me as a science freak, cuz i love science and have always aspired to be a pharmacist, or a doctor.. in gm days i graduated with all 3s in my sciences, in taylors days i graudated mainly with HDs in chem and Cs in Biology.
When it came to out MUFY grades, i realised that i missed just 5 points to get into Pharmacy, hence i had to decide between biomedical science and law. Having been inspired by a few law shows, i figured i should give law a shot
for the past 2 years, my arrogance had overwhelmed me.. i always harboured this high-and-mighty behaviour that i entered uni earlier than my mates, and i felt that law was a breeze, hence i played like a monkey last year
when my 1st year results came, i was shocked beyond compare
i was granted under strict conditions to continue onto 2nd year.. however the implicit humiliation i had to endure was overwhelming.. not only was i academically segregated from my friends, i had to face the fact that i was a repeat student
exam preparation was the worst. I had this old habit that if i could remember the important facts of the subject, the exam would be a breeze for me... sadly once again.. i was jolted back to reality when i realised that i had to fail to overcome one of the most important aspects of all exams: time management... Expounding too much information on one question eats up a whole chunk of time and pretty soon, i had to resort to writing sloppy answers (thankfully relatively elligible) to make up for the time i had needlessly spent on one question.. and hence screwing up the entire exam
time and time i complain to God, why do you place in me such a horrible course? why didn't you let me pursue science which i loved? why am i facing so much crap in exams when i put in my hardest? why God why?
and yesterday, God answered my complaints through my mum
He loves me
for many of my non-christian friends they would probably go 'huh?'...
Just like God loved his son Jesus so much that he was willing to let him suffer so much for our sakes, He is making em go through so much crap to show how much He loves me
still skeptical? heres why:
If i had pursued my interest in science, i would never experienced how tough the real world is (no offence to my science friends).. if one has never tasted the pain of failure, or the sufferings incurred through trials and tribulations, one would reduced to an insignificant speck of dust as soon as one steps in to the real world. For me, who has never tasted the bitterness of failure until i attained the age of 17, it was harsh.
But it was all done according to God's Will.. and i deeply appreciate whatever He has done for me. If i hadn't opened my eyes earlier, who knows what would happen to me in the future
im thankful for rededicating my life back to Christ in 2005
``sincerely: bryys ; 11:54 PM
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